School Dances

So tonight is our University's Spring Formal. From what I've gandered there will be approximately 90 people in attendance. My high School was small and so was our prom but I think we managed to attract more people. I have mixed feelings about dances. I either have a good time or come home feeling sick because I have social anxiety. I can never force my self to enjoy it. Either I feel confident because I actually have people who make me feel included with or I get self conscious and want to go to my room and be alone. I often feel like I'm "tagging along" or I have to insert myself into a group. I bought the ticket and I mentioned that I might not go to a friends and they said that I should. It made me wonder, since he's SAC Chair(Student Activities Counsel), if it would be that there would be one more person there or if he really wanted me to come. Here I go into my brain's constant analysis of what people really think about me. Would anyone actually notice that I wasn't there, notice if I was, if I left? I really shouldn't put this into a blog but oh well. It's all like reliving High School, my adolescent ideology that people care about how I look or act and all that stuff. Ok I'm stopping.

Do other larger Colleges and Universities still have "Formals" or are they just Frat parties?

Opening the flood gates of my own brand of Chaos

So I don't know who will ever find this but what the heck. This is another attempt for me to try to get my ideas out into the world and to just rant or release my pent up mental and/or creative energy. I have a YouTube account but my computer and editing software never seem to like me so I've neglected that. I also have a twitter that only has 18 followers and most of those are random and I have no clue how they found me and I'm unsure they are even real people. Though I've had two random "celebrities", one is a jewelry artist and the other is a small cast member from the "The Guild". If you find this I'm not dissing you but I don't understand how you got subscribed to me, I actually thought you were quite good. I've also had random friend invites on Youtube. But this is besides the point. I'll probably forget about this blog after a few weeks or maybe it'll survive. Who know maybe I'll get my 15min. of fame one day.... yeah i guess if it's God willing. I'll probably get lost in the sea of fellow wannabes other ranters.

I work in the art gallery at my small private university so I have four hours ever weekend to write about stuff that is not at all legitimate to my academic studies that I should be working on.

Speaking of which I'm at the end of my shift so I won't get to do my introductions till the next blog post so until then I guess....